why am i so scared to

lose your favor, milord?

i wish i knew my child.. i wish i knew.

*sobs* all i ever wanted was your approval...

you always had it. can't you see it? you always had my approval.. i always had high regard for you my child. always. it never ebbed.

then why am i so scared?

perhaps you're scared of loneliness. all of us are. but it's alright, i am here.

but i thought.. i thought you weren't.

i am... but it never shows.

...